For all the new readers out there, normally I write a monthly post whenever the full moon appears, as something bad/good normally happens during this period. Its effect could be subtle, almost unnoticeable at times. But on some occasions, the stuff going on around my life can be very obvious, with its effects on me being mindblowingly harsh, or incredibly empowering. It could be something bad, but it might be a life-changing, empowering experience too.
This month, or year, has been absolutely incredible. To think that we’re only in April makes me even more excited about what lies ahead. While everything that I say now sounds superstitious – with me being someone who never believes in these telekinetic forces – I strongly believe that if you pump all your energy into what you truly enjoy, you then create your own luck in life.
In case you didn’t know, this year’s Chinese zodiac represents the year of the horse, and this occurs every 12 years. The last time the year of the horse came about, I was graduating from primary school but had arguably my best year then, having a group of friends to rally around and overcame my appalling mathematical skills to graduate.
This year so far though, has eclipsed all that.
These 2 weeks especially, has given me energy that I have not felt since 2005, when Liverpool won the UEFA Champions League. That ecstasy, the pride of bringing a scarf to school, the energy that coursed around your body that made you feel invincible. And what surprised me even more was the number of other events that has culminated in such feelings, the endless happiness and adrenaline that makes you feel unbeatable, the vigour that courses through the most passionate people that trumps intellect, capital and politics.
Understand this feeling by positioning yourself in a situation where you never had anything given to you in your life. And when you disregard your doubters, face every challenge full-on, and blow every obstacle apart with dynamism and spirit – that is truly, sheer exuberance and might.
After all that pep talk, here’s the top 3 highlights for the month. These events have been exceptional in changing my life -
24 years finally coming to an end? #makeusdream
Liverpool – hiking may be my favourite sport, but I still haven’t forgotten my footballing heritage. From supporting a working-class, group-oriented football club, going through its pains and tragedies, but having the best voice and song in the world that to this day, still make my hairs stand, is something that would always belong to my character and its drive. There are 4 games left in the Premier League, and Liverpool’s at the top of the table. It has been 24 years since Liverpool were last crowned Champions of England, but it has also taken me 24 years to emancipate myself from the oppressive country where I was born. Though I was in London and without a TV set in front of me, once the final score was anncounced, I remembered cheering and being so ecstatic, the kind of scenes only remembered on the most joyful of occasions. I am in Europe now, the pinnacle of my dreams. And now, it’s Liverpool, our turn to hold aloft the trophy that has eluded us for too long. C’mon you Reds! YNWA!
Dare to dream
Europe – I would live anywhere in the world, away from oppression and degradation. But the place I find most comfortable, most identifiable, is Europe. While I wouldn’t want to be drawn into the politics of each nation (I would probably write more about them in future posts), Europe has been incredibly accepting of me, with lifelong friends met and opportunities aplenty. If you told me a year ago, that I would be spearheading my own projects and developing so many skills away from the formal curriculum of Sociology, I might think that you were having a laugh! Either way, since discovering Europe as a kid, I have always wanted to travel here, and after going through one too many shit (and still going through them now), the dream has been held aloft but there’s still a long way to go from here. “Home is where your heart is” (former roommate of mine). And Europe is where my heart is.
Friends + Milkshakes = awesome combination!
Friends – These few weeks have been exceptionally breathtaking in terms of friendships. The rallying cry from people urging me to fight on, the believe and backing from everyone for me to achieve all my dreams in Europe. Everyone has been phenomenal. I don’t like to write about my most private moments here. But there is one where it has been exceptionally life-changing and taken me by surprise. I’m not sure how this private event might turn out, nothing is guaranteed in this world. But I’m sure it will grow similarly to how sheer will take people over the line. It has been terrifyingly wonderful, making one feel so vulnerable, yet triggering the side of me that thrives on the most difficult of situations, that mustering of energy that transcends physiological functions. This happy, private moment has lifted me into my Ivory tower, but I don’t intend to stop there. It may be frail but I want to build things further.
I think times now are defining my life further. So many moments now are pivotal to changing my life. That perseverance and determination has triumphed over the nightmarish spells of 2012. I don’t think I can be brought down anymore. People may have brought down Liverpool through the Hillsborough tragedy. It may have been 25 years, but that perseverance in the fans, that drive and belief in myself, a triumphalism even in the toughest of moments, I believe, my sheer will would shine through.
My belief is unstoppable.
“I haven’t seen this smile in your face before, this extra sparkle in your smiles. This extra energy in you” – a good friend